Safe Place

Oh how my soul longs to be here. To hear the silence of the world and let my soul run free. Oh how I long to listen to the waves crash against the coast, to feel the breeze in the air, and to feel closer to God more than any other place on earth. This is my safe place. The place I go to unwind and decompress. The place I long for. It's the place I feel at peace, the place where I feel warm, cozy, and free. Oh how my soul longs to feel the dew from the oceans mist. To feel the cleansing of my soul that only this place can bring. This is my escape, this is my oasis. Heaven is beyond my comprehension, but to me the ocean is a tiny glimpse of what He has for me in enternity. I desperately wish I was here, feeling the warmth of the sun on my skin and going to a place that I can process and cleanse, a place of restoration. This is where I feel and live His beautiful creations. To rest in my Heavenly Father. Oh how my soul longs to be here.

This is where my soul resides when it’s not out frolicking.

P.S. I love you

I am usually not one for sappy girly movies. Sure I like the occassional romantic comedy now and again but I don't rush off to see the latest "Chick Flick" I recently rewatched P.S. I love you for the millioneth time. This one just does it for me. There is something my souls connects to. I remember in the beginning of the movie just feeling like, wow this is really how Troy and I are at times. The first time I saw this movie, I truly was overwhelmed with emotions. I thought how many times I have had a disagreement with Troy over the silliest things. I can't imagine loosing him, I can't imagine trying to start a life without him in it. This movie just makes me think, it makes me appreciate and cherish my husband. There is so much raw, real emotion in this movie. But one thing it makes me know deep down inside of me....I will love Troy until I no longer live. LOVE YOU 'TIL THE END I just want to see you When you're all alone I just want to catch you if I can I just want to be there When the morning light explodes On your face it radiates I can't escape I love you 'till the end I just want to tell you nothing You don't want to hear All I want is for you to say Why don't you just take me Where I've never been before I know you want to hear me Catch my breath I love you 'till the end I just want to be there When we're caught in the rain I just want to see you laugh not cry I just want to feel you When the night puts on its cloak I'm lost for words don't tell me All I can say I love you 'till the end

Ode to Joy

It truly was an ode to the joy I felt in my heart. I walk into my parents house on Monday April 16, my 31st birthday. I had had a great birthday so far, nothing out of the norm, a good day at work and a great word from God at Soul Sister's that night. I had many wish me blessings, and make me feel special. The one thing I was most looking forward to that day had nothing to do with my birthday but everything to do with the two angels God has blessed my life with. I don't know what it feels like to be a mom, but I know how amazing, how blessed, how rewarding it is to be an AUNTIE and that night I just wanted to have those little arms wrapped around me, to see their smiles and hear their laughs. These two boys light up my heart, as do all of my nieces and nephews. Their is something about each of them that just overwhelms me with love.

Joshie ran to me and said Happy Birthday Auntie as he jumped in my arms. I gave him a big hug and kiss and told him this was the best birthday I could have, and he said if you think this is great just wait what I have for you, I am going to serenade you later with a song. Then comes Braeden aka Mini me and he jumps in my arms and I get to love on him too and wish him a happy birthday. I was just so content with being in the presence of these two little boys.

Later, after my mom got home, Josh got out his Violin (which he just started lessons on) and played Ode to Joy. It was beautiful and I was blown away with how good it was, how well he played knowing he was just learning. He did great and it was beautiful. It is moments like these that you will treasure forever. Those sweet tender moments, when kids melt your heart and really define ODE TO JOY.....

The Inheritance Session 9

The last Session to the Inheritance Studay by Beth Moore was amazing. I have learned so much through this study and know as I continue to process and reread the scriptures and my notes, God will have so much more to reveal to me. If you have a chance to participate in a group session for this study I would highly recommend it, if not I would do it on your own. Learning about our Inheritance and just how much God prepared for us will blow your mind. Be Blessed!!!

Confessions of an Heiress

God has made me an heir.
I am a real, live heir of God and co-heir of Jesus Christ.
Because I am a woman, technically, I’m an heiress.
The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed I have a beautiful inheritance.
As an heiress of God, my life is never left to chance.
As a member of the NT priesthood of believers and as an heiress of God, He is my portion…and I am His.
I am inheriting a kingdom
My inheritance can never perish, spoil or fade. It’s being kept in heaven for me.

 An inheritance is being kept for us in heaven.
 A huge deposit of riches really ought to wait until someone is mature enough to receive it.
 Time cannot affect our waiting inheritance.
 We were appointed to manifest Christ when someone insults us. We are to respond with blessing and to use our tongues to bless.
 When we choose to speak blessing instead of insult, God speaks a blessing over us.
 There is no greater value than committing someone who insults you to God and praying that God will give them their inheritance.
 Our inheritance changes the way we look at bad experiences.
 The one and only reason we have an inheritance is Jesus Christ.
 We are receiving an inheritance because someone did die.
 Jesus Christ left a will for us – the inheritance of the kingdom. He died to give it to us. He just didn’t stay dead.
 The earth will be completely redeemed under Christ’s authority.
 Life like the heiress that you know yourself to be!


When you have entered the land the LORD your God is giving you as an inheritance and have taken possession of it and settled in it, take some of the first fruits of all that you produce from
the soil of the land the Lord your God is giving you and put them in a basket. Then go to the place the LORD your God will choose as a dwelling for His Name and say… “I declare today to
the LORD your God that I have come to the land the LORD swore to our forefathers to give us .… Now I bring the first fruits of the soil that You, O LORD, have given me.” Place the basket before the LORD your God and bow down before Him. And you and the Levites and the aliens
among you shall rejoice in all the good things the LORD your God has given to you and your household.

Deuteronomy 26: 1-4, 10, 11

The Inheritance Session 8 Notes

We are continuing with Session 8 of the Inheritance by Beth Moore…..
Wow, Monday night was so good. I am sad that so many of our table missed on Monday night. I hope that each of you will be able to attend the next three sessions and finish this semester strong. I highly recommend that if you weren’t there Monday night that you download the session. Our story focused on Lost things being found, and the Prodigal. Beth nailed some heavy truths about sin, mostly sexual sin but she came from such an honest and powerful place. This session really made me think about my past and how God is in constant Pursuit of me, how blessed are we that God cares enough to pursue us when we turn on Him.

• Sometimes something is more valuable to us when it’s lost than when it’s found
• At the end of our lives, we’re going to turn our inheritance back into Christ and then we’ll be given responsibility in Heaven
• We squander so much of the Father’s Property
• Various ways we squander (waste or scatter) our inheritance:
o By being too distracted to prioritize
o Bitterness
o Unforgiveness
o Feeling sorry for ourselves
o Not giving Jesus full authority- who’s in charge -> God ->Me -> God -> Me
o Carnality
• God promised that if you will be obedient to Him, no enemy will be able to stand against you, NO one can defeat you.
• If you are living in the will of God, we are never meant to experience defeat (you will have difficulties but not defeat) If you are being defeated you need to ask why and evaluate why:
o Innocently- you don’t know the scriptures well enough
o Disbelief in God and His promises and faithfulness
o Disobedience to God
o Sin ruling over you
o Enemy is on your land
• Your enemy does not have the right to defeat you. You are made more than an overcomer on each square inch of your land
• We can be victorious even if we are not perfect (FYI NO one is PERFECT)
• To be blameless means we don’t have sin ruling over us. We sin, but sin doesn’t have to rule over us
• Everyone misuses their God-given property at some point to some extent
• God, our Father is never without reaction to the misuse of His property
• You are an heiress of God!! Respect and value yourself!! Find out who you are.
• You can have a harvest on your land, all is not lost
• The chief goal of all godly chastisement is so that we can be healed. If we come between someone and their consequences and rescue them, we are rescuing them from their healing.
o God creates consequences for actions. He does so in order to woo a child back home. God appoints consequences and even enemy forces if necessary to woo a child home. The consequences are so that child came be healed. When you step in and try and rescue them before they meet that consequence, when you enable, or when you prevent the rock bottom moments, you are keeping them from their Healing!!
• God knows you can’t force someone’s heart back home- he doesn’t look or force- he just waits!!
• Very seldom do people make a huge or pivotal life change because they have hurt someone else. We are not wired to change to protect, save, and heal, out of love for someone else. It isn’t until we are scorched by our own sin that we will change
• True repentance is always earmarked with humility
• There will always be those who disapprove of or despise our restoration, whether among the family of God or enemy forces
• There is always going to be somebody who takes away our right to be forgiven.
• Repentance has to be authentic, has to radiate from the core of us, to our bones, knowing that no one can take it from you
• No weapon forged again you will prevail
• Part of our heritage is that we get to refute the tongue of the accuser
• I am forgiven. Back the heck off!!!!!
• In Jesus’ name, we are forgiven!! That is our heritage
• The prodigal is never more lost than when he/she thinks they are responsible for being found
• NEVER TWIST the parable into suggesting that it is better to be the prodigal than the faithful.

Sexual Sin Comment’s and Notes:
We all know, saved or not that sex outside of marriage is a SIN. Whether you truly believe it, it is not just some outdated ideology. Sex changes things, changes you, changes what you will or will not tolerate or accept in a relationship. Most relationships (non-marriage) that have abuse in them, they have had sexual relationship. We all (those who have sexually sinned) have felt the sting, the pain, the shame, etc from sex. How many times have you wished you have never slept with that person, or wish you never went there, or have wished you didn’t take sexual baggage into your marriage.
• Sexual sin- makes you bound to someone you aren’t supposed to be with. Sometimes you stay because you have had sex with them, knowing that they are the “HELLBOY” you aren’t supposed to be with.
• Sexual sin doesn’t work well
• If you are doing it, stop it, it will destroy so much of the fabric of your soul
• You will start feeling devalued- do not give away yourself so cheaply
• Have some dignity and act like the Heiress God created you to be
• People don’t treasure you because you don’t treasure yourself
• We have to repent, and accept this is who you were not who you are
Beth hit hard on this subject but she came from such a beautiful place. There wasn’t condemnation in her comments; there was love and compassion as someone who has felt the sting and the torture in the purest form of this sin. She encouraged woman to see their worth in Christ, and recognize no matter how much we try to make sex outside of marriage a NON-SIN it is. And it is a sin that has the power to destroy, tear down, devalue, disrespect, damage, numb, scar, you. It is so personal and so emotional and it truly was designed by God for good and for pleasure within marriage. If you struggle in this area pray that God will guide you with this sin, that he will soften your heart to recognize what it is and what it does. That he will reveal to you his purpose and plan for you in this area and lead you to repentance and forgiveness. Pour this at the feet of Jesus and know that you have sisters who have been in your shoes, who have sought the Lord and found freedom, forgiveness and cleansing of the wounds. This is a hard topic, it is one we all try to avoid but ladies it is the one sin that can cause so much pain in your life and so much distance between you and God. I personally am here to talk and to share my walk and journey with being a prodigal and the moments when God ran to me and pursued me.