Beauty from Ashes...So I rise

I recently changed my url and my title of my blog. Beauty from Ashes...So I rise..
This is something that just speaks to what God has done in my life. Throughout the years He has really been showing me that my struggles and trials were not in vain and that He can and will use my story, my testimony for his greater good. I recently had the chance to share part of my testimony at the kick of for our Women's Bible Study event. Pastor Laurie truly blessed me by asking me to share and let me tell you GOD WAS GLORIFIED through all the women who shared. I am so proud of each of them and their willingness to be courageous and transparent. He has created in me a new person.

In Loving Memory--- MkD

It’s funny how she just pops in my mind. There are so many days, so many moments that I think of her. Throughout the years I would check out her face book, see how she was doing, and send her a little note whatever. I was always curious; she just seemed to have a wonderful life. She was entertaining, she was stunning, and I missed the close friendship we once had. Just like many things and many people in life, you lose touch but it doesn’t take away the importance of that person, or the impact they had on your life. I loved how once upon a time, we were vulnerable, we shared our innermost thoughts and feelings, and we laughed and cried together. I have caught myself crying many times over her in the last 2.5 months. It just doesn’t seem like reality, I can’t wrap my head around her being gone.


Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if we could tell those who have left us how much we care, how much people miss you, how much you impacted so many lives. I wish she could look down and read what people say about her, I wish she could feel the tears and the sadness that is left behind because she no longer exists in this world. I wish she could have felt how much people really loved her, how much better she made each of us, how we desperately want her to know, it’s just not the same without her. I know she lives on in so many of us, but I wish she just lived on.

Why

you have been on my mind a lot recently. I have been blessed with you visiting me in my dreams. Though the years got away from us, I just held such a special place for you in my heart. You were just one of those people that made you happy, that brought joy and laughter into your life. I love your spunky personality, you captivated me. I know so many people miss you, God knows I do. I heard this song and couldn't help but cry for you. I still can't get my head around it all, but I know that you are soaring and your soul is finally at peace. Miss you MKD!!! You must have been in a Place so dark You couldn't feel the light Reachin' for you through That stormy cloud Now here we are Gathered in our little hometown This can't be the way You meant to draw a crowd [Chorus] Oh why, that's what I keep asking Was there anything I could've Said or done Oh, I had no clue you were Masking A troubled soul, God only knows What went wrong and why You would leave the stage In the middle of a song Now in my mind I'll keep you frozen As a seventeen-year-old Rounding third to score the Winning run You always played with passion No matter what the game When you took the stage You'd shine just like the sun [Chorus] Oh why, that's what I keep asking Was there anything I could've Said or done Oh, I had no clue you were Masking A troubled soul, God only knows What went wrong and why You would leave the stage In the middle of a song Now the oak trees are swaying In the early autumn breeze A golden sun is shining on my face Through tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing This old world really ain't that Bad of a place Oh why, there's no comprehending And who am I to try to Judge or explain Oh, but I do have one Burning question Who told you life wasn't Worth the fight They were wrong, they lied Now you're gone and we cry 'Cause it's not like you to Walk away In the middle of a song Your beautiful song Your absolutely beautiful song

Tangeled Up Mess

I think back on the last two months and how completely broken I have felt at times. The roller coaster I have been on just didn’t want to stop and I felt so lost in the mess at times. This undoing has been the slow unraveling of everything I held close. You’d think by now with the life I have lived I would be used to the crushing; this one caught me off guard. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father. He is bringing meaning back to life; he is bringing beauty from ashes. I wish I could cling to Him when I am not falling to apart, I am learning but the desperation for Him is what is so beautiful in my tangled up mess. This is why I enjoy the crushing, though painful, I feel the presence of God more than ever. I survive only because he holds my hand; He untangles this messy life and catches me when I fall.

Mason Jar, any Jar.....

I am obsessed. I really want to be creative and when I see stuff like this I want to redo my entire house. This will be on the Tarno project list before long. I love jars and all the cool things you can do with them.

For someone whom I recently met

This is for every girl out there in her "single" time. Pray for your future and remember these words. Thought I would share this for someone whom I recently have had the pleasure getting to know.