Moonlight

I wrote this in July of 2001

It is the hope that shines in the world of darkness
It awakens the soul
and breaths light into the abandoned heart

Just like rain quenches the thirst of parched rivers
Your smile, your being
revitalizes my tarnished soul

Written By:

Meghan Leigh

My Heart's Cry

Lord I humbly bow before you I give these burdens over to you Oh God You know the secrets of my soul I am letting go of my pain and my fears. My brokenness I will bring and lay it all down before You my King. I am in need of your mending touch. Heal me Oh God.

Lord Your love is my heart's cry. I long to wake and feel your embrace, to be surrounded in your warmth. I've been bent over, crouched in the darkness, felt empty inside, spinning around out of control. Running to this no where distance. Heal my fading heart oh God. You can fill this void, you can make me feel alive.

Lord quench this thirst I have for You. I ache to feel your presence in my life. Fill me Lord so that I may live in your presence. Draw me close to You oh God. Purify my mind by replacing all my painful memories. Spill your mercy over me, cleanse me with your blood so that I may be made whole in You. Oh God, You are the true lover of my heart, of my life.

Lord I used to run in times of my defeat. When my soul was left broken and abused, I ran to many and away from many things until I was completely numb, completely dead inside. Now I find strength in your embrace. Make my pieces whole again. I yearn for the freedom found in You. I kneel before your cross, pleading for my salvation. Satisfy this cry with endless grace. I feel you holding me as I begin to be restored by You. Make me full of faith Lord. Never silence this cry!!

Vulture like Woman

You know who I am, you know my name

You know he is unavailable- but yet attainable to you

You are my constant reminder of the pain within

You are like a vulture awaiting the feast

Unaware that the woman who loves him is torn apart

You continue to toy at his heart- test his emotions- test his commitment

Mistaking our weakness as your chance

Mistaking my failure as your strength

I know his eyes make you feel safe- they intrigue you

I know his words bring you comfort, renew your spirit- give you hope

A womans intuition is no more a myth than his indignant claims of innocence

But he is not my anger- he is not the one I blame- he is not the one I mistrust

You- THE WOMAN- you are my prey

I must control the piqued jealous beast that lurks just beneath my skin

I am not at peace today

I will however fight to maintain my sanity and build my roads on today because tomorrow's ground remains uncertain

I have learned to endure- I am a survivor- a fighter

I am strong and I have worth

I will not walk away

I will not feel defeated

I will continue to love MY MAN with every ounce of me

And pray that you, vulture like woman- fade away



Written By:



Meghan L. Morris

Unbreakable Two

Rage, volumes of anger

Craziness, consumed in this pain

Words spoken, ripping out everything that ever had a meaning

Stabbing what I called OUR LIFE, feelings of our passing

Crystal blues gives way to black as tears pour down my face



You feel my pain as I release each ounce of my suffering onto you

You see the hurt that Ive built up inside

You hear the questions echoing with whys



My endless screams clutter my mind

Feeling beaten down by our past I cant bear repeating

Hurtful, painstaking journey that we are on



Lashing out my despair inside my head

Freeing my demons I find peace- I find rest



Psychotic love- yet stable, normal

Unstoppable

Unbreakable

Outlasting every obstacle

Our powerful force that both of us fear in silence

Questioning its existence- pushing it away

Pretending we dont hear loves cries

Playing safe to prolong the pain from interfering

Cant attach ourselves to the words

Though the screams inside yell ITS LOVE!!!!!!!!!!



In the center of my madness

You become the calm to my storm

You reveal what it is that I need to see

And how it has always been me

The truth we both believe, we uncover to one another

Because of her we find US

What is meant to BE

What will always BE

Finding us, you and me

Closer, happier, and finally where we need to be

TOGETHER

HAPPY

FREE



Written By:

Meghan L Morris

The Freudian

I wrote this in March of 2001

I see my reflection in your narrow, sharp, piercing body
as you shine in the dim light
The decision of your use
holds my life in your hands
I grip you as I contemplate
my tears hit your body and soon fade away
My hands tremble as I touch you
I slowly make you move your way down the spot
and ponder for a deeper connection
Yes or no, No or yes
Decision made
You move in deeper
and slice me open
As my blood suurounds you
fear and panic
Pain, excruciating pain
Tears and hatred
Why did I let you do this to me
Red, gushing, dripping, red
I see the mark you left on me
As I reflect where I might not be
Here alive, happy and free
Free from pain
Free from darkness
Free from those unwanted tears
but most of all
Free from these suicidal tendencies

Written By:

Meghan Leigh

Haunted

Restless nights, tossing and turning
She keeps entering and haunting my dreams
When will this hysteria end
Constantly guarded, uneasy, questioning often
Hatred is not what I have for her
But confusion leading to madness
Why can't I erase the thoughts
Why can't It come to an end
When she and I no longer contemplate one another
And the craziness disappears in the night
Lasting for an eternity
Rest in Peace Ghost
May I gain the power to not allow you to haunt me
May I one day be free
Free from you
Free to live and breath in peaceful serene
Free from madness
Goodbye sweet ghost
You are not wanted or welcome
Goodbye

The Violation

I wrote this in April 2001

A violation of trust
A violation caused from your lust

I am lost within my soul
Searching for a reason why
But I can't seem to find answers
I can't find reason for your madness
All I find is my sadness

I cry from pain
I cry from shame
I cry from anger
I cry from fear
I cry my tears

My tears now burn like acid dripping down my face
They make me sick, these tears I shed
They hurt my sould, darken my heart
They screw with my emotions inside my head

Written By:
Meghan Leigh

Nighttime Lover

Under the starlit night

We lay in each others embrace

My head against your chest

I listen to every beat

My body trembles



I hunger for you

I remember the sweet delicious taste of your moist lips

The craving must be indulged

Tonight take me away to our secret place

That only you and I can explore



Anticipation

Yearning for you and our love

Without resistance I yield to you

Surrender



You work your way down my tender flesh

Exploring every inch of me

We are consumed in experiencing each other

Bodies absorbed in one another

My body arches to feel all of you

Becoming one as we melt together

Electricity flows between us



I am balanced

With you in this moment is where I belong

Volcanic Passion- erupting from within

Released in a massive single explosion

Burning fire, sweet desire, a seductive sin

The air fills with perfume of a sweet love affair



Written By:



Meghan L Morris

Dear Abigail

I wrote this in March of 2001

I said I would always be there
I haven't let you down
I said that I would always care
I haven't forgotten my word
I wish I could have said goodbye
Lord knows I wanted to
He has the same wish for you
and says he loves and misses you too
I wish I could ease his pain
and dry the tears he sheds
But damn he can't let you go
Your memory screws with his head
He cries for you all the time
and never forgets the day
that punk took his momma away
I try to be all that I can
and worry about him always
I will never leave his side
This promise I will keep
I wanted you to know he will be alright
He will fill his void someday
Just remember your baby love you
no matter what you did
Be proud that he has extinguished his rage
and trying turn around from his old ways
Abigail we miss you and the punk he will pay

Written By:

Meghan Leigh

Perserverance

Lord, my spirit is willing,
But my flesh is so weak;
God, every day I cry out to you,
Yet I don’t hear you speak.

I’ve been beaten so many times.
You know what I’ve been through;
I can’t overcome this giant.
Yet it’s the only thing I must do.

I fought this trial too many times.
I used all the strength in me;
Yet I lost in every battle,
And once again I’m not free.

Lord, I’m tempted to just call it quits,
And lay here on the ground;
I will let the giant win again.
I have fought too many rounds.

As I am now at my lowest,
Tears flow down my cheeks;
I cry out to God again,
“Jesus, I am just too weak!”

Suddenly I felt my body
Being lifted up by my Lord;
He helped me back on my feet,
And said, “Lets do this once more.”

I stood up to that giant,
And fought as hard as I could;
He used old tactics to make me give up.
Yet he only thought I would.

I was determined to not back down.
I had been here long enough;
It’s not the number of times I get hit.
It’s the number of times I get up.