I am, You are

Read this somewhere and thought of the man I love...TT

I am a rose, you are my thorns,
clutching to me, protecting me.

I am the sun, you are my rays,
helping me to shine and to be all that I can.

I am a lake, you are my water,
filling me with ideas, dreams, and hopes for the future.

I am a tree, you are my leaves,
sharing who and what I am
and becoming an important part of my life.

I am a heart, you are my beat,
beating rhythmically to my happiness,
my fear, my sadness, my excitement


I am me and you are with me,
to share all that I am,
to share life, love, and happiness.

What Happens in Vegas

Troy turned 40 this year so of course we had to celebrate in stiyle. We went to Vegas along with some of our favorite people, Kati, Kate, Karissa, Robert, Kyle and Kylee.



I was a virgin to the strip and I have to say I am now addicted. The second we stepped off the plane back into boring ole Tejas, I told Troy I was ready to go back to Vegas!!! There is so much to take in, so many things to do and see and no matter how much you don't sleep you still can't take it all in. So there will be another Vegas trip in my future.

We had a great time and enjoyed many laughs. The old saying What Happens in Vegas stays in Vegas, well I am glad that for our experience there that saying need not apply!! We partied with the best of them but I don't think I have laughed so hard in my life. Riding the Duece was an adventure all on it's own with Memories I don't think we will ever forget.




We can
We can't even qalk
we can't even walk thE strip with alcohol ...and they walkeds from. kentucky
cannot operate machinery.. heavy blackberries now...big finger...little button
ridin' the deuce
how far is McKinney?...what do I have two kidneys?....hahahahaha
where u going to get it put at??? lol...
that's what she said
stop
I'm not doing that
we started with a guy and all of a suidden it was a girl
boob check
Meghan.... Vegas....enough said...
conversations of a 1 mile ride on the deuce.....
comments...what??? stolen blackberry!
its only fun if u make noises while ur doing it...

We had a great drunk trip back from Downtown to MGM. I will never forget this trip. We saw Zummanity which is the sensual side of Crique de Soli and it was amazing, very interesting, funny and quite entertaining. We had VIP access to the Ghostbar, which is just one big blur but all and all we had a great time and can't wait to go back. Glad we got to "GO BIG" for the hubby and celebrate his birthday. Good times!!

Finding Peace

It is so great when you can find peace with your past. I went through Pathways and that was my number one struggle, I let my past define me and control me. Once you rid yourself of all the negativity you will be amazed at the work God can do in you. I am so grateful I choose his definition of me now, that I am that God fearing woman that desires to live.

I have recently come to a strange road in my life. Where some people I thought could never be a part of me have reoccured in my prayer life. You may sever the ties with people, but the ones you truly care for you continue to pray God's will in their lives. Some people I wish never existed in my story, some parts I had cried out to erase, but through God's restoration I have learned that each part of the messy dirty past has made me who I am today. Some of those I will hold in my heart forever. I am so grateful that my broken road God can and will use to His Glory. So I have found that true peace and I am perfectly ok with who I was because its helps me be who I am today and what God will create in me tomorrow.

Pieces by RED.. Reaction by Meghan

Pieces"

I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way

Then I see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

I've come undone
But you make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in your hand,

Then I see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole!

I tried so hard! So hard!
I tried so hard!

Then I see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole
So you can make me whole



I have listened to this song many times in my life and every time I do I am moved. I decided to listen to it on the way to work this morning. My mind was flooded by memories. I remember being a shattered, broken person and trying so hard on my own to make myself whole again but only to be broken and shattered time and time again. Right before I was at my lowest (I guess almost a year prior) I started praying to God to destroy me. At the time I didn't quite know why I was praying that but I just kept begging him to shatter me and I think I was finally aware but not aware that I needed to be so helpless, so hopeless, so broken that I knew I couldn't do it on my own and that God would have to save me. I still can feel the desperation so fresh as if it happened yesterday. I seriously had lost hope and almost gave up on life itself..that I was so unaware that God was simply answering my cries, answering my prayers. Days, weeks and months I started contemplating killing myself just to rid myself of all the pain, the shame, the guilt, the depression, the anxiety and fear, but God was allowing me to feel everything I had previously begged for him to give me.

I feel sometimes that people who have not walked in the darkness can't fully understand how amazing it feels, how freeing it feels, how blessed it feels to walk in the light. The desperation for answers and for healing, the desperation to feel something other than brokenness and destruction. My GOD is so amazing, so loving so much more than I deserve but He is the only answer...He may have used other outlets to get to me other than church but one thing I know and one thing I overwhelmingly feel when I hear this song is...WE CAN NOT FIX THIS ON OUR OWN>>>WHEN YOU ARE DESPERATE AND DESTROYED THAT IS THE PERFECT TIME FOR GOD TO USE YOU AND HEAL YOU AND CREATE IN YOU A NEW LIFE. HE RESTORES LIFE, HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN PICK UP THOSE PIECES AND MAKE YOU WHOLE. I am no longer lost, I no longer am meaningless, I am the daughter of a King, the daughter of the most high and the most righteous and I have been given another shot at life because my Heavenly Father saves!!!!

One of my favorite poems--from Love Jones

It is the color of light
the shape of sound high in the evergreens
It lies suspended in hills,
A blue linei n a red sky

I am looking at sound

I am hearing the brightness of high bluffs and almond tress
I am tasting the wilderness of lakes, rivers and streams
Caught in an angle of song

I am remembering water
that glows in the dawn
The motion tumbled in earth
Life hidden in mounds
I am dancing a bright beam of light

I am remembering love

Heroes among men

My mom and dad are my everything. I could not have asked for better parents. If I am half the mother that my mom is my children will be very blessed. My mother has loved me unconditionally, prayed for me, encouraged me, accepted me and supported me. When I was not in the right place of my life, she always accepted me and loved me. My mother is a subservient wife, she honors my father and is a GODLY woman who serves her Lord daily. She never gave up hope in God and knew that though I has stepped out of his grace, He would not forsake me. She fell to her knees and prayed fervently for God to save me. I tease her now and tell her I put her through so much so she could become a mentor to young women. I can't thank her enough for showing me an amazing example of a wife and mother. No matter how bad things got in my life, she was one person I could count on. My heart breaks knowing what she has suffered by my actions, words and life. I owe her more than I could ever repay. But God had a purpose greater than both of our knowledge for our suffering. I love her deeply and am happy to have a close relationship with her. I can now call her mother and friend which at one point I never imagined.

My father is the perfect man in my eyes. He is the unattainable man. He is a man of honor and dignity. He is a man of God and his personality shines bright. He stops at nothing to make his children happy, smile and feel loved. He has been my provider, protector, laughter and the first man I ever loved. He loves his children and his wife with all he has. He loves the Lord with every ounce of his being. It has been an honor to see my daddy transformed by our gracious Heavenly Father. I can't say enough about him.

My parents have not only loved their children beyond measure but have poured love out to our friends, their friends, family and anyone they come in contact with. I consider it a great honor and privilege to be the daughter of Donnie Philip and Robin Morris.

Troy, my husband is another one of my heroes. He will always be a star in my sky. The one I run to, the one that wipes my tears away, makes me laugh, makes me proud. He has been such a strong presence in my life. I would not be where I am today without his love, care, concern and support. He sees more in me than I see in myself and always wants more for me than I have wanted for myself. He is my best friend. He helped me realize that there was more to life than the existence I had settled for. He helped me through some of the hardest things I have faced. He believed in me when I had lost all hope.

My brother Jonathan is another one of my heroes. I need to tell him more often how much I look up to him and admire him. I love him beyond measure. He has been my hero and role model since I was little. There was nothing that he couldn't do. Today he is serving the Lord and sharing Christ with many through his ministry. He is an amazing father to my two angels who I adore and love with all my heart. He is a great husband to my sissy in love. I am proud of who he is and what he stands for.

God Fearing

I couldn't even begin to explain how you get a contract in Pathways. What I can say is that everyone has negatively claimed something over themselves. When I was broken and beat down I always considered myself to be "Damaged Goods" I wore this title and my life reflected what I said about myself. When I went through Pathways I fought so hard to rid myself of the negativity and my past that I constantly defined myself by. I lost the damaged goods and became Meghan, THE GOD FEARING WOMAN THAT WANTS TO LIVE

Finding God again was in that training was my saving grace. At the time I didn't realize how significant my contract was in a biblical sense. I know God showed up and saved me when I was in Pathways, but he also placed something in my heart for me to claim for myself that was of Him, I am still learning what God fearing truly means but am excited to see what scripture reveals to me through this process.

I used to be crippled and scarred by my past but I can now look back tenderly and gently at all that I have been through. I look with my soul and see that each experience was necessary to bring me home to my Saviour.

Proverbs 1:29-31 (New International Version)

29 Since they hated knowledge
and did not choose to fear the LORD,
30 since they would not accept my advice
and spurned my rebuke,
31 they will eat the fruit of their ways
and be filled with the fruit of their schemes

Proverbs 3:3 (New International Version)

3 Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.

Proverbs 3:5-7 (New International Version)

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight. [a]
7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD and shun evil.

Proverbs 8:13-14 (New International Version)

13 To fear the LORD is to hate evil;
I hate pride and arrogance,
evil behavior and perverse speech.
14 Counsel and sound judgment are mine;
I have understanding and power
Proverbs 14:16 (New International Version)

16 A wise man fears the LORD and shuns evil,
but a fool is hotheaded and reckless.

Proverbs 9:10-11 (New International Version)

10 "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom,
and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.
11 For through me your days will be many,
and years will be added to your life.

Proverbs 10:27 (New International Version)

27 The fear of the LORD adds length to life,
but the years of the wicked are cut short.


Proverbs 14:27 (New International Version)

27 The fear of the LORD is a fountain of life,
turning a man from the snares of death.

Proverbs 15:33 (New International Version)

33 The fear of the LORD teaches a man wisdom, [a]
and humility comes before honor.
Psalm 34:11-22 (New International Version)

11 Come, my children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
12 Whoever of you loves life
and desires to see many good days,
13 keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from speaking lies.
14 Turn from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.
15 The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous
and his ears are attentive to their cry;
16 the face of the LORD is against those who do evil,
to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
17 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.
18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
19 A righteous man may have many troubles,
but the LORD delivers him from them all;
20 he protects all his bones,
not one of them will be broken.
21 Evil will slay the wicked;
the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
22 The LORD redeems his servants;
no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.

A Blessing from God

We felt lost at church for awhile. We loved worship service, felt God bring truth to our lives through Pastor Kevin and adored our praise and worship team but always felt like something was missing. I know deep down both of our hearts hungered for a real deep connection with other Christians who are actively seeking God and fellowship with others. We took the first step and signed up for "Experience" at our Church.

The morning of Experience I didn't expect anything significant or life changing, just thought we would find out information about how to get plugged in. (That was me making God small again) I had a rough night the night before, didn't feel very well, and we had decided to skip church service because of how I felt. Troy was supposed to be at work but both of our hearts felt led to attend Experience regardless of the circumstances. God had a tremendous blessing in store for us that we were completely unaware of. We were greeted and led to a table where they asked us to sit. We started talking with the table leaders and instantly felt a connection. As we shared with them and everyone else at our table we felt at ease and both shared the longing in our hearts for meaningful relationships with other Christians. We shared that we both were Protocal Children and within the last 5 plus years had become followers of Jesus Christ again.
Throughout my relationship and struggles within my relationship I have always felt that I have had amazing friends that I can rely on and talk to. They have helped me beyond measure but I have always wanted Troy to have a sphere of influence that were Godly men who could reveal God's truth to him through friendships. I know I need that too but I felt Troy is in greater need than I. After leaving Experience and talking later that night with my husband, we both knew meeting Melanie and Don we part of God's plan for us. I have to pause and give God the glory. He knew the desires of our hearts, he knew what we needed and He delivered without us asking Him. Is He faithful and good or what??????
Since meeting Melanie and Don we have been attending their small group and have been blessed with amazing Brothers and Sisters in Christ. We have desperately needed this in our lives. God met my needs before I confessed them to Him. We have gained so much through His provisions. We both are truly excited to grow with our small group as we grow closer to God.
We have come to realize that we don't just need our vertical relationship with God to get through life and have a healthy marriage, we need others that are in our body of Christ. We desperately need people to guide us, inspire us, encourage us, pray for us, mentor us. A support system with other Christians, people we can be transparent with, laugh with, cry with , confide in and hold us accountable. We need those friendship through the good and when Satan attacks and tries to destroy us. We have truly been blessed and I am beyond grateful for God's provision in our lives. We are surrounded by wonderfully amazing men and women that we feel comfortable with, accepted and loved.

Hebrews 10:23-25 (New International Version)
23Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. 24And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. 25Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching

Acts 2:42-47 (New International Version)

The Fellowship of the Believers
42They devoted themselves to the apostles' teaching and to the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. 43Everyone was filled with awe, and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles. 44All the believers were together and had everything in common. 45Selling their possessions and goods, they gave to anyone as he had need. 46Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, 47praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.

God's perfect design..one of my wow moments

So I have always been independent, stubborn and my own person. I have a very strong will and feel as though I haven't ever needed anyone. I enjoy those in my life but have been prideful at times that I want them don't need them. It has been nice having friends and relationships but when in a serious relationship I haven't always felt the need. Over the last couple of years God has seriously been pointing out some of my character flaws which I have viewed as strengths. I always thought being an independent woman was what I desired and prided myself on being able to take care of myself and my leadership skills. I am not saying that being your own person is bad, but God keeps pulling on my heart strings, that His design for marriage is me taking the backseat and following my husband's leadership. I know many women cringe at the word submission but God has revealed his meaning to me and I am learning that though I have fought it in the past, His design is perfect.

More and more I feel the desire to have my husband be the leader of our home, I feel this burning inside that I truly want him to be the man God has for him to be. So many times I have looked at him and wondered why hasn't he fully evolved to be that man and sadly the revelation has been I AM THE ONE STOPPING HIM!!! I am a take control and need to be in control person. But that strength has now become a weakness in my marriage. My husband should be the leader and me his helper. And God is making my heart desperately need that.

I serve an awesome God and know that me admitting that I need my husband to be the leader is just the first step in the process of aligning our marriage by God's perfect design.

Thank you God for making my heart long for Troy to be the leader. I know I have a long road ahead but am grateful for the revelation.

Freedom isn't free- we sacrifice daily

I saw a post on Facebook today with the Lines to the American Pledge of Allegiance. I was reminded how once upon a time in a different world, it was normal to go to school and pledge your allegiance every morning. America has gotten so off course. We violate other's rights in order to protect the rights of someone else. As long as every other religion except Christianity is protected, we are not violating rights.

Since when did America shift to a Pagan country, where we completely ignore the principles and laws that were set in place to appease the few that feel violated. We are constantly loosing our freedoms, our Constitutional Rights because of groups feeling violated. I will pray for our nation and for the leaders of our nation but one thing is for sure, we have lost our way America.


We've become a nation made up of very small humans playing God. As a result, many people treat religion more like a hobby than a deeper spiritual connection with the TRUE GOD. It's a free-flowing, do-as-you-please, spiritual smorgasbord where they pick and choose what they want to believe in and when they will believe it. A little dab of truth here, a little dab there but ultimately no real truth. As someone has said, "God created man in His own image; then man returned the favor."

Our country is now being treated just as people treat their religion. We will keep these constitutional rights because they don't offend, or violate this group but we will change the context of this to suit our needs. I am grateful to be an American and live in a country the is so-called "FREE" but I am tired of all the liberties we are sacrificing and will continue to sacrifice. We need to pray for our country.

Another thing that erks at me is those who want this country to remain free from terrorist threats, want our borders to be safe, want our Country to be protected against war within our own walls, but disrespects and disgraces the very own soldiers who are out there fighting. Show some respect, quite mouthing off about how we shouldn't be at war and thank those who sacrifice their lives, their time, and their love ones. I am proud of all our soldiers and am forever indebted to those who serve. You are honorable men and women that deserve to be praised.