Just what I needed

So Troy and I have been going through some trying times (but we are getting through hand in hand/together) and I am trying to grab hold to God with all I have but have been weak in my flesh. Today I stumbled across a random blog and on the front page this is what it had.....

Psalm 143

1 Hear my prayer, O LORD,

Give ear to my supplications!

In Your faithfulness answer me,

And in Your righteousness.

2 Do not enter into judgment with Your servant,

For in Your sight no one living is righteous.



3 For the enemy has persecuted my soul;

He has crushed my life to the ground;

He has made me dwell in darkness,

Like those who have long been dead.

4 Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me;

My heart within me is distressed.



5 I remember the days of old;

I meditate on all Your works;

I muse on the work of Your hands.

6 I spread out my hands to You;

My soul longs for You like a thirsty land. Selah



7 Answer me speedily, O LORD;

My spirit fails!

Do not hide Your face from me,

Lest I be like those who go down into the pit.

8 Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning,

For in You do I trust;

Cause me to know the way in which I should walk,

For I lift up my soul to You.



9 Deliver me, O LORD, from my enemies;

In You I take shelter.[a]

10 Teach me to do Your will,

For You are my God;

Your Spirit is good.

Lead me in the land of uprightness.



11 Revive me, O LORD, for Your name’s sake!

For Your righteousness’ sake bring my soul out of trouble.

12 In Your mercy cut off my enemies,

And destroy all those who afflict my soul;

For I am Your servant.



AMEN.



I am telling you, that everything I need recently God is showing me. This will be my prayer, this will be what I meditate on and cry out to God with.

Thank you Jesus, Thank you God for this revelation and for your Promises

I really do love my husband

So many times I forget to tell him just how much I love him, just how much I appreciate all he does and who he is. I just want to brag on him for one second because I truly did marry a great man. God is doing some amazing things in him and it is a blessing to watch him grow in Christ. He loves me and supports me, encourages me and holds me up when I don't have the strength to do so myself. I thank God that He created this man just for me. I love you Troy!!!

Overwhelmed

Life has a way of getting your attention. This year has been a trying one. I have prayed, begged and pleaded to God that I can not handle anything else, that I am at my max for what I can take and more and more is being piled on me. I have reached breaking points, I have laid in my bed and cried and cried. I have felt defeated, OVERWHELMED, stressed to the max. I have lost faith a couple of times and have really acted like I do not serve a God that can and will. Jesus has never left my side though. He has been my strength when I thought I had none and he has done so many things to get my attention. One thing I love, is that when Satan is trying to grab me, JESUS steps in and defeats him. He is our conquerer. Recently I gave up, I just wanted to crawl in a hole and let everything consume me. God showed up in every conversation, every thought, every moment. He sent me little reminders of who HE is, what HE can do, how when I have little faith He won't leave me. He will pursue me even in my moments of doubts, even in those moments when I throw my hands up and give up.

I feel like so many points in my life I have said that I have never needed Christ more than I do now. He is showing me that I need Him every day, every hour, every minute, every second. Part of why I struggle, why He allows me to be overwhelmed is to remind me that HE CAN when I can't and I need to give it all over to Him. He is more than enough and I truly can't do it on my own.

I know I will struggle in the overwhelmed, I will have those moments when I loose site of Jesus and His promises, I will feel as though God has forsaked me, but He will never leave my side, He will never stop pursuing me and telling me to just have Faith. How awesome and wonderful is that.

I have one amazing Heavenly Father, what more could I need.