(Joshua and Braeden)
Many times in my life I have acted without a care in the world to my consequences. I chose a life of bad choices and was going in the wrong direction. I had hated who I was to the point of contemplating ending my life.
I am so grateful that I was able to be pulled from the pit and that God love’s me enough to save me and forgive me. There are so many things in life to be thankful for. There was a time in my life that I just really lost hope in God. My life was in shambles and two people whom I loved dearly and who were Godly people struggled to have children. I couldn’t understand at the time how God could allow my brother and sister in law to struggle with multiple miscarriages when so many people I have known get pregnant and have no desire to bring the child to life. Where is the justice in this world? What I didn’t know then is that God had a bigger plan in mind, Joshua.. He is a miracle to so many in my life. The joy he brought to Torie and Jonathan and the joy he brought to my mom and dad, Shirley, Gary and Tim. He was an amazing gift to all who received him. But deep down inside me, he was a huge part in my need to change my life. How can this little life create such a stir in my heart? How can this baby bring such love that I had forgotten existed? I don’t know what it is like to be a parent and I can’t begin to imagine. I look at both of my nephews and am dumbfounded by just how much I love them, how much I would give up for them. How can two little boys be my inspiration? I have never felt love they way I feel for them. They bring so much joy and happiness to my life. I hate that I am so far away from them but I cherish each second I get with them. I knew God had a great gift for my brother and sister in love, but I never imagined the gift he was giving me as well. I am beyond grateful for Joshua and Braeden. They say some of the sweetest things. Joshua amazes me with how smart he is, how he can master so many things in front of him. He has such a loving spirit. Braeden is my snuggle bug, he is my mini me and it is so special to share so many things with him. He is creative and loving and the kid makes you laugh for days, he definitely has character. I am so grateful that I am an Aunt to two amazing little boys. I am so thankful that they are raised in a Christian home and have already demonstrated their eagerness to know God and love God. The make my heart soar and smile. I am so lucky two be a part of their lives, what a blessing my two little miracle angels are. I love them so much and I love that because of them I continually want to grow. Thank you God for Joshie and Brae, they have made my life so much greater.
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